Then Let Yourself BE Big!
Los Angeles is a big city. I mean, like megalopolis-style, holy-shit-I-don’t-have-enough-time-in-this-lifetime to even BEGIN to explore, understand, or relate to this city in any thorough way. I was looking at a map the other day, trying to wrap my head around where everything is in relation to where I live (Topanga), and it just didn’t make any sense to me. And instead of letting its massiveness freak me out, I am embracing it–loving it, really.
See, I’m from the San Francisco Bay Area and have lived there for most of my life, and while it certainly is a big city by most standards, it feels like a quaint and comfortable city by LA standards. I’m pretty sure I have set foot on just about every street in San Francisco. It’s rare that I see something that really surprises me there, whereas in LA, it’s almost more surprising to see something that doesn’t surprise me, if you catch my drift…
And it’s not just the geographical land mass and the population size that is so gigantic. It’s the energy of this city. As I was driving here on my move down from the Bay Area, it was like I could feel this vortex of energy sucking me in and pulling me towards the city. Talk about the power of attraction!
If I had moved here a couple of years ago, I can feel that the energy here would have been “too much” for me to deal with. I would have gotten overwhelmed, spun out, and probably would have had to move back to the Bay.
But now, the bigness of the energy here feels like a match–exhilaratingly so–to the energy work I have been doing on myself over the last few years. I imagine that Los Angeles is this giant buffet–maybe the biggest on the planet–with some of the most delicious food you could ever imagine eating, and some of the most repulsive food you could ever imagine eating (literally, and metaphorically). It’s a city that’s got it all, and now that I am learning to be more in sync with what I really want, it feels like I am entering a new phase of my life that is all about feasting. Serious feasting.
So in celebration of all things B-I-G, I want to invite you to feel into the bigness of your energy field. If you think about it, you have been hanging around on this planet for a while, and have collected incredible amounts of data about what you really want. Every time you live something that you don’t want, the larger part of you picks up a signal about what you do want, and the culmination of these requests equals the masterpiece that I am calling, Your Tapestry of Badassery.
It sounds magnificent, and it sounds vast and somewhat ethereal (a bit like Los Angeles), but I assure you, it doesn’t have to overwhelm you or freak you out. It’s the pure energy field of who you really are, and yes, it is BIG, but it’s easier to tap into than you think.
I have been playing with this exercise from the comfort of my bed, first thing in the morning, when I’m feeling fresh, though you can do it any time you’ve got a few minutes to just sit and be.
Energy Game to Allow Yourself to Be Big
* This exercise is great for building confidence, self-esteem, healthy boundaries with others, and allowing your Big Dreams to start coming into clearer focus.
Close your eyes and take a couple of long, deep breaths to focus inwards, and then feel into the energy of your body. Notice any particular qualities: colors, textures, movement, or patterns. Allow yourself to explore the feeling of energy in your body, and relax into it for a few moments.
Now, imagine that this energy field expands just beyond your physical body, maybe by a foot or so. Feel what it feels like to sink into this extension of your energy field. Notice if you feel any change in sensation, or emotion.
Now, imagine your energy field expanding out into the room around, filling every crevice and corner, nook and hollow. Allow your energy to stretch out and play, swirl and dance, and take up space.
You can stop there, or you can imagine your energy field taking up greater and greater fields of space, from your entire home, to your neighborhood, to your city, to the entire planet, to the Universe…as far as you can go while continuing to relax and allow yourself to sink into greater and greater awareness of the Bigness of You.
Hint: If you get overwhelmed or start feeling anxious as you start seeing yourself as big, slow it down and rest in the last comfortable place you found. Sometimes I can do this and go as far as the entire city of Los Angeles, and other times I have to keep it to about a foot in front of me. There’s no right or wrong here, do whatever feels good to you.
Play around with this game, and let me know how it feels to let yourself Be Big!
With Love and Mischief,